no i'm not dead

Though,  i'm dying to myself right now. 

my computer is a wee sick so i havent been able to blog like id like to on this one.

"If you listen just right, you can almost hear it.
The symphony of secrecy, love and fear.
(search for love, but finding fear.)

Like a moth to a flame, we become helpless
To the beautiful ghosts
That true love sheds.

We are all running our very own races,
Set out upon the most dangerous of places.
And through it all, we were left
With a void in our chests,
We're aching to fill.

The doves come
To gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through the mouths from which we speak.

God, will you help us understand the meaning of it all?
Will you send your Angels down to us, at our every call?
Sometimes it seems the world is passing us
Faster than my eyes can adjust.

I can't decide
If I'm living or I'm dying.
So I test your love and I test your love, I test your love.

The doves come
To gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through us now...
The doves come
To gather our every need,
They lift them up to Heaven
Through the mouths from which we speak.

Like a moth to a flame, we become helpless
To the beautiful ghosts
That true love sheds "

i hope you know, i love you guys 

I am yours, you are mine

Summer feels like one reallly long day. not in a bad way really, it just does. Once i start driving soon, we need to get at the summer 09 list ASAP Arry ! Tomorrow should be fantastic, going to the beach with fantastic people, and The Front .
Here's a little somethin i whipped up for you tonight. It's just kind of an experiment, i played around with the effects and clips on my computer, it's short. I'll be working on another joyful one soon though .

No medicine ever works on my body . It's all good.
i'm going to snuggle up in my blankets, make a mini pizza and ice cream , and watch Benjamin Button . I wish people were here ,and we could have a movie night, and i'd make you mini pizzas and icecream :D

I'll be up all night, we should talk
if not, i love you , sleep well