I can't breathe.

"This is for all those who search for something more
Never give up, never give in
When words have no meaning because your time in hell has left you cold and alone
What was thought to be good in the world gave you the back of their hand
The breath of life has become empty, without feeling
So you, bury your head and distance yourself
The dreams still wake you in tears and nightmares, battery and anguish
Tears, nightmares. Battery and anguish
All that's good in the world can be wrecked in such a short time
and then you'll wonder is the end near
Take a chance, just one time. Make ready your heart tonight
And you sing:
Is this the end? This is all I have
Love is here now that you're at your end. "

Here i am, choking on my own insides. This, this is my midnight fight. So close your eyes, shut your eyes to what the world says is correct ,to what the world puts on display but has no value. I see the most when my eyes are closed. even when the loved are gone, we are never alone . They are in a place where they are more alive .

Ezekiel 36:26 "i will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; i will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh."